Words on sorrow.. when they say.. LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH

Words on sorrow..  when they say.. LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH

 This is a rough time of the year for many.. some hide.. some take a way out that is so mind blowing for the rest of us.  Some of us don’t see it coming..  some of us worry about our love ones.. be they a friend or family..  and yet can’t find the magic words to say..  to keep the person thinking that their lives are such a black hole, they can’t take it anymore. 

We had a family member.. who did on the 7^th of December. Don’t know if she was thinking about how she could not face Christmas, even tho it was one of her favorites in the past years..  We knew she was fragile.  She had been fragile before.  She had a wonderful boyfriend, who was by her side 99% of the time.   Yet, she found a way to divert him, and did the deed…  to our horror..   And she left a note…  with the words above…  LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH..  How can you fight that?

So even those were her words, I pray that your love one.. that Love IS enough..  and you can help..

If the worse happens.. there are groups to help you..  Find them..  because you will never understand and they can help you try.   Google the suicide line.. in your area.

LONG DAY IN THE KITCHEN…

LONG DAY IN THE KITCHEN…

Up and at them.. early 0 hour… well for me.. at least. See in the winter I sleep in..  because I am a daylight person..  So when the sun is up at 5am. in the summer… I am up at 5am.  When it is up at 7:15am in the winter…  I am .. yep, up at 7:15 or so.. some times 7:30 if it is overcast and the sun is not coming thru my window.. The bed is too warm to leave before that.. and nothing is hurting on my body.

So to be up at 6am.. yesterday morning… quick breakfast.. and I was ready to go.. Had all the bowls out, and all the measuring cups from 1 cup to 8 cups..  I had the cookie sheets and the wire racks.. All out the night before..  I got the bowls in a row..  and started to put ingredient in them… and then to my HORROR… I saw I did NOT have enough brown sugar.   So called the King (he is up at 5am and with his cronies at the HOOT OWL.)….I asked him to pick up 4 bags..  he got me 5.. that is ok..  Any way.. got the ingredient in each of the bowls.  Not enough nuts for all 3.. which is fine.. as I try not to put nuts in all of my cookies. For those who are allergic.

So with breakfast and ingredient ready to go..  I was spoon  in hand at 8am.. Spooning dough out on to the cookie sheets.  I have 6 cookie sheets..  and by 8:30… first one in..

By 1pm I was all done with all of the sheets and cooked and cookies on the wire racks.

By 3pm all were cool enough to bag. 10 to a bag. Well, I started out with 12.. but when I noticed one of them was 2 short because my tester husband took 2..  so figured… ok. 10 is a good number.

Had them all bagged by 4. And out in the refrigerator in the garage. (a little out of range for my tester husband to get) As  there were a few tinged at the edges.. which became the Testers..  lol..

At 5pm..I was fixing dinner and eating..  by 6.. I had the breads back in the house from the garage.. and wrapped them in wrapping… as I didn’t like how the foil fit around them..  By 7pm, I had the pans all washed, and placed outside in the cupboards in the garage.  And the kitchen back to normal..  what ever normal is..   That is the longest I have been in a kitchen.. since.. well, I don’t remember.. Since retiring… and then the King retired.. and he loves to cook, I don’t do much but prep work for him.  BUT I AM DONE..

I use to do breads, cookies, candy and one time did jalapeno jam.   And we gave it all away in baskets for gifts..  But we don’t do that anymore.. for one thing.. a lot of the receivers have passed away..

But at least I got it done.. until next year..

Wizard of Oz

Wizard of Oz

My thoughts of late have been on the song in Wizard of Oz.

It is the one where the scarecrow sings..  I WISH I HAD A BRAIN…   Because mine seems to go on vacation from time to time..  use to say..  a  SENIOR MOMENT.. but that is too short of a time for this.  

But I got to admit.. I pass what I have now called Dementia Test..  that is where you sit so nice in your house, writing out a list of stuff you need from the store…   and THEN YOU FORGET IT ON THE COUNTER…   and you don’t discovery this … until you are entering the store.  No, you don’t want to drive home and get it..  So you trudge thru and try to remember what it was on the list.  Closing your eyes and trying to imagine what you see of what you wrote, does not help at all.     And I hate going up and down the aisle trying to see what seems familiar of what you are missing at home.    But I went to the store .. and I searched all of my pockets.. (vest has 4 and jacket has two) NO LIST..   I remember the main thing I wanted as I had just wrote it down before I left.  The others were from a day or two before..   But I AM SOOOOOOOOO PROUD OF MYSELF… I aced it.  I got all 5 items.. (what did you think I was a genius and remember 20? Come on .) At 84.. 5 is good. 

Well, heading in the kitchen to make cookies this am.. Christmas cookies that the King loves..  when I make a big batch.. I have to freeze ¾ of them .. or we will binge eat them..   that is why I only make them once a year..  ok. I am off..  humming  Oh, if only I had a brain……

My heart just doesn’t seem to be in it…

My heart just doesn’t seem to be in it…

Each year, for years..  this is the time I start making my Choc. Zucchini Bread..   Last year I did maybe about 8 of them…. usually to about 20..  And this year.. I really don’t have my heart into it..  Hoping when I start, I will get into the mood.. But it is the getting started.. 

Actually I am having a hard time getting my heart into anything…  Got the Christmas stuff out..  looked thru it..  hung the King’s flat tree on the wall next to his chair.. put the rest of it back in the tote and put it in the back room with the other one.. I have got it down to 2 totes.  We don’t do a regular tree.. no room.. Found the flat wall tree a few years ago.. It serves the purpose..  when it is over, just roll it up and put it away until next year.

Anyway, figured I would give the chore to the GGboys.. when they come over Wed.  Did it with one last year.. he did a pretty good job. So hoping they will do well, and not fight over it..  There is no such thing about it not going any particular place.. Just let his ideas flow..  So God only knows where the stuff will end up at..   Will show pictures next week.

 

 

This and That…

This and That…

Well, here we go… closing in on 2025.. ending another year…  or as I use to say..  Another year shot to hell..  lets see how we do with the next one. 

Already told you, I thought this year was on maxi speed. 

While we are about 4 weeks to 2025..  we still have time for things to happen in this world..

There are many changes over seas..  Lets hope peace on earth is one of them.

I have decided ..  I don’t like going for drives any more.  Over the weekend we traveled to Spokane.  Now normally that isn’t a big deal. We went what we would think is the back way.. thru Newport, WA.. down highway 2.. to Spokane.   We have done this many times, just not in the past 4 or 5 years.  It seem like it was FOREVER.. We had traveled for at least an hour… and I finally said.. Boy, I don’t remember this road being so long…  And the King replied… I was just thinking the same thing..  I was thinking how I was beginning to think like a kid.  ARE WE THERE YET?  ARE WE THERE YET?   When we left for home we took one of the other routes we normally take. And it did seem faster..  but it still was a long time.. So about 2 hours each way… with dinner on the way home.  So we were going for over 4 hours.. And the dog was not happy..  I think she thought we deserted her.  As this is the longest we have been gone. Guess I am just getting old.

Oh, and it was for nothing..  We found out the chair the King was thinking about getting.. was really nice.. but the price sure wasn’t..  so we came home empty handed.. Oh well, it was a ride with my sweet guy, who gets very upset with Washington drivers… lol.. and we got lost.. so had to stop for directions.. and of course we had traveled about 18 miles the wrong way…  Oh, road trips… I think I will pass.