Sunday, March 22, 2026

MEANWHILE..... trying to get my life back...

 

Meanwhile….

Meanwhile my life seems to be spirally out of control..  last least how I control it.   I take pride in controlling… not others…   have no  interest in people.  Just keeping control of my own life is hard enough.

Last week, I went to prayer meeting like I do each Wed.. about 5  to7 of us read off prayer request for any one and who ever asked us to pray for those of needs.   

I got up Thursday about 8 as usual.  And barely made it to the bathroom while my stomach decided what exit was the contents in side using for a exit.   Finally deciding rear over toilet..  mouth In side grocery bag.  I came out and Ken said he wasn’t feeling too well either.   I told him I was going to lay down for a while.   Now remember by body is still fighting my nerves with shingles .. this is not good..    I woke up later and sat on the coach.. I looked at the clock and said . wow.. daylight time is sure stay light for a longer time..   he gave me a quizzal look…he said.. you know that is 9:10 in the morning, right?  And I asked what day..  Friday morning..  some where between Thursday and Friday..  I lost  track…  AND my gait wasn’t doing too well, like I was drunk even though I don’t drink..  Then I had make a call that I was suppose to do the night before..  I apologized thru mess of words..   he said no problem as he was sick…too.  I slept a good part of Sat.  and today is Sunday and not doing that great either. But least I can put  sentence together and make sense..    went outside to feel the warmth of the sun and breathe fresh air..      Ken is holding his own.  He has made a couple of runs to the store ..  I have slept with the dog as she felt sorry for me..  

What I want to know.. where did I go wrong..  Have not been this sick for years and even then kept my sense.. what little I have left.

So if you are getting this or can stay away from those  stay away.. it is hell…  

They say that a bad start if a good ending..  well, Jan to March has been truly hell    and hoping to see June show up..  take good care of yourself..

 

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