This was a subject that our Pastor has been working on for the month
of July… Most of it we didn’t
get until we got home from Portland.
We were gone for 2 weeks.. Which
made me smile, as the reason
we could not answer him was, because we actually were giving
ourselves away. We were down there because the King’s best
friend,
who went in
for open heart surgery, had taken a turn for the
worse. We arrived and then our friend Gord’s
sisters arrive
One from Nebraska and the other from California.
Girls, laugh out loud, one is a very spunky 91 and the other is in her
60’s. We were
in the …
let us be your support system. We ran errands, trips to the hospital, clean house,
meals ready when they walked in the door, so they could go back again. For two
weeks we were all Team Gordon. Finally things turn for the better. Each of us leaving, with promise of return
when he got to the rehab place later. Each leaving, feeling more at ease, to
our own lives… With the help of the neighbor, taking
care of the
cat and mail… after helping us.. as none of us were
local. Team Gord, worked well, like a well oiled
machine.
Before all
this, my life was helping out my grandchildren, as
They were
expecting their first child. So while dad was working
I ran mom
to the dr’s of many types.. some times 3 times a week.
Baby was
born 3 days before we left.
I don’t
tell you this to brag, but to bring up the other side of ..”are you giving
yourself away”… Over the years I have
done this type of stuff with great ease. Way back when I was in my 20’s…taking
friends who didn’t know how to drive, where ever she had to go. Dr.
appt..shopping.. you know the whole gamut. Be it a drive some
where, a
shoulder to cry on, food during hard times.. all with ease.
What I have
trouble with is…asking for help for myself… even some times when it is offered…
I was great of saying … oh, that is ok, I will be fine. I will get it
done.. no problem.. And figured out how to do it myself. I am still bad at it… I have gotten a little
better at accepting,
when
offered. But to ask someone…I don’t know
why.. don’t want to bother anyone… maybe they have something else to do.. what
ever…but just can’t. Same thing with
just say you welcome, when someone thanks me for something. I’m always telling them it is no big deal..
you would do it for me and etc.. But in
the past two years… I have finally changed it to.. you welcome, glad I could
help. . Anyone
else have
this problem?
But have to
say, I do find it rewarding to help.