DAMN IT TO HELL… CANCER…
DAMN YOU TO HELL…
Over the years, I have
lost a great deal of friends to cancer.. even my mother had cancer.. My very favorite Aunt and Uncle… both….
My first introduction to
cancer was my parents losing a friend at the age of 45 to cancer… and how upset
they were. I didn't understand as I
think I was about
10 or 12. I just understood it was a bad thing.
I can remember my mother
talking about cancer after that.. it was more of a mention than a
discussion. Something about her step
mother telling her, that my grandmother (her
mother) died of the nasty dirty cancer.
And how happy
she was to find out that
it wasn't cancer. About 45 years later,
when I was doing some research, I
found her death certificate and found out it was cancer caused. It was due to an
operation, on the cancer, and the side effects killed my grandmother at the
age of 36. My own mother was scared of
the age 36, especially when I happen
to turn 13 at the same month and she was 13 when her mother died.
My next introduction to
cancer was a friend/neighbor/class mate… He was a big guy.. got married,
had two kids.. and at the age of 24 got that word…
Cancer… He went from
200+ pounds to 98 before he passed. I was horrified when I saw him a week
before he passed away. They were helping him get in the car to go to the
doctors… I went home and cried.. I had never seen any
one dying of cancer
before.
Jump forward 30 years,
and I started working in nursing home.. then I really got to know about
cancer.. 17 years of taking care of cancer patients. Amazing strong people. Some of
them so worried about their family members, that they forgot about themselves.
I found out that cancer had no prejudices.
Age, color, nationality,
thin, heavy… made no difference… And what we were really amazed, was how
many people who worked there, got cancer.
Now Cancer is not
contagious. But we counted 11 workers, in 3 years. Nurses, aides, kitchen
cooks, and housekeeper…. Didn't matter. Some of these people were good friends
of mine… I cried a lot. We in the health care business are suppose to have objectivity...but there is no way to take it in stride.
Then my mother got
cancer… she lasted 6 months… My uncle
years later, and then his wife, who
was my all time favorite person… like a mother to me.
I cried…
A friend lost her
daughter to cancer… another friend got cancer. My cousin got Cancer at the same time
as my brother and my neighbor.. My brother and my
neighbor are still
fighting…but my cousin lost. I cry a lot…
inside as well as outside.
Just when it seem like
things calmed down… when I got word again, that another friend had cancer… she
fought the good fight.. almost made it.. but cancer return. What a beautiful voice…. My walking friend, she came down with her 4th series of cancer… and
lost.
And this month… my
niece, has cancer and is starting her chemo… she has a good chance of beating
it.. She chose to have both of her breast removed. She hopes and we pray, that
will end any more chances of a return.
Another friend, his son,
and we pray that the procedure will be the end of his.. Another friend lost her
husband, in April… he fought the battle, it didn't look good, and then they
came up with a new procedure… and it was so hopeful.
It looked good……but then
infection kicked in.. and he lost the battle…
All of this… has been
heavy on my mind…. this year….and then today, I found out my friend who lost
her husband.. now has lung cancer.. never smoked.. yet
there it is.. We are
pulling for her.. the chemo has to work…
We put a man on the
moon, we come up with all kinds of computer that are out of date before they
hardly leave the factory.. why.. oh, why.. can’t we find something to cure cancer…
something that will put a stop to ever get it.
I don’t think there is
anyone.. who doesn't know someone, who has cancer..
The only ray of hope is
there are survivors out there… And there are scientist who are still working
hard to find another medical procedure… another med…to help in the battle…
and that is our hope…. Our only hope…
DAMN YOU TO HELL, CANCER…
we have NOT gave up.. we have just begun to fight…
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